Ugh.. to the most

So my weekend was a drag Rocky was so much fun though and Amanda is hilarious and embarassing gotta love her though..but other thatn that i will never work in red bluff for the remainder of my time at Perkos.... It is a cult and i cant care it, but you know what i made money... so anyways.. im bored like the usual and got a check for 100.00 for a great friend for a grad present and i cant wait to get more... and so yeah. i wanna go to school and finish the rest of my year there with a BANG. whoop whoop class of 2007 here i come. teehe. ciao loves..

NEW BLOG

I have another Blog for just my poetry. Check it out. ok?
these arent my most recent but there will be more to come.

just a thought

Everyday that we wake up and live. is another day towards death.. no one ever thinks of this when you are fully happy. My poetry has become almost extinct but i am willing to revive all of my thoughts for you to read. i have a terrible graphic imagination almost depressing as each line lingers... Im an artist in more ways than one. I dont have to hide Talent.

No Where to go from here

This morningi decided that now i can stay home on my own. I dont feel that my mom should be responsible for me, as far as now that i am of age where i can do officially now when ever i want. On Satuday i am working my first split shift in nine months. 8-2 in redbluff... then that night 5-830 in anderson. And i dont have my own CAR!!. well anyways. i am so sick of drama bullshit. Today loverboy is coming into town. Hopefully that Strange Amanda and Jessica get to come with me tomorrow, to the rocky horror picture show. Today at 1245 i am off to see Pirates number 3 im excited although it would have been sick if we could have went last night at the midnight show.. I have a thing a about midnight shows. they thrill me. All in all its still early and my day has yet to begin...

So today was an alright day you know? i cant complain i laughed and almost cried. Today i gave my art teacher a letter of appreciation, well lets just say we got a softie on our hands because like 1o minutes later he comes in and gives me a hug, and the grown man is crying. But you know what someone who does what he does shouldnt go on without recognition. I have to work tonight wow. isnt that amazing. and i have BIG plans to go to Rocky on this lovely saturday night. I cant wait .. to see what kind of thrills are in store. *argh* I started a new painting and i am liking it quite well its not something that i usually do but lately i am getting into my more rustic italian side.. Wine Coffee French Bread... yes put that all together and we got out selves some art. Kayla is an amazing individual, her prescences is seriously like that most awesome ever.

My Plans

So i have a set date that i am going to start the big move. My calendar is set for the 15th of June. My father is renting a hauling trailer and i am on my way to the big city of Sac town California. With loverboy that is. i will being going to school there in the spring.. In the mean time i plan to work and just fully enjoy myself and the independence that i will gain away from. Im sad to leave my mom though she means the world to me as i do to her. and she needs me more than she expresses but she is a strong woman and i have faith. Her Battles are hopefully over ( in reference to my sister). So needs to wake up and have a reality check, that this is our mom and she is there to help and not out to get you. She needs to realixe that she wont ever gain my attention the way she is trying now.
Family and Life in general is something to live for. I wanna be here for my mom and my dad who has recently taken an interest in my life and who i want to be. before i was a complete failure too stubborn to give in to his lies. Things between has worked out for the better..
I love this state that i am in right now. and im not afraid to be happy and express it. People really need to give me the time of day to talk .. and for them to listen and find out who i truly am.

Things Are Happening so Fast

So Graduation is very near. Senior Banquet is next week.... then off to starting graduation practice. I am excited for the most part but also a hint of sadness. I have to say but i have truly enjoyed my time in High School although i dont think that i ever belong there in the first place far to mature then your common teen. I over all the drama and i am holding onto the friends that i have fun around, and that i know care about me as much as i care about them. I have offered my services more than once to others but you know what i dont ask a second time. There is no need to dwell on those things that i feel are so mellow dramatic. you know what i mean?